Saturday….
A big day. We discovered, not entirely unexpectedly, we’re expecting!
Sunday….
A strange day. No monkey. In fact, there was no monkey most of the weekend (and not since we’ve learned this momentous news). The day was so quiet without him. It brought me back to what it felt like waiting for him to arrive; a completely silent house with a special excitement running just beneath the peaceful surface. But, oh how I missed the wonderful noise that has replaced the silence!
Monkey will be a big brother. Wow! It is such an important title for such a little guy. I can’t wait to see him tonight. We haven’t seen him since we learned his new status in the family. Will I look at him differently today? Will he seem a little bit older than he was just 48 hours ago? Certainly I have already been nostalgic just thinking about a new one, and remembering how amazing everything with Logan felt (and still does) when everything is so brand new. I spent much of Sunday thinking back to the journey of getting here, and excited about the differences in the journey this time around.
Our first big adventure -- as a family!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
How do you measure a year?
In the time before Logan, my birthday was always a momentous occasion. It was the time of year when I took stock and thought about the ways in which my life was different than it had been just one year before. With the birth of Logan (just 4 days after my birthday last year) this years reflection was a little bit different.
Aside from the obvious changes that a new life brings, there were so many things I hadn't expected. One change in particular was clarity. I'd read so many articles about how motherhood makes you forget things, deprives you of sleep and generally causes the thousand yard stare that many new parents get. For me at least, this wasn't true. Quite the opposite. Where I used to spend so much time thinking about what I needed to be thinking about, I now spend time doing those things that are most important.
So maybe I don't accomplish everything on my to-do list anymore. And maybe I do occasionally forget a to-do or two. What I've come to realize is that some of those to-dos just weren't worth doing. And so many of the things that don't make a to-do list, like reading a book with my son or relaxing with him in the backyard, marveling as he discovers something new (and really allowing myself to be engaged; not weeding or dead-heading the flowers or sweeping the porch), are the most important to-dos of all.
The clarity to see that which is most important in life was the best birthday gift by far.
Aside from the obvious changes that a new life brings, there were so many things I hadn't expected. One change in particular was clarity. I'd read so many articles about how motherhood makes you forget things, deprives you of sleep and generally causes the thousand yard stare that many new parents get. For me at least, this wasn't true. Quite the opposite. Where I used to spend so much time thinking about what I needed to be thinking about, I now spend time doing those things that are most important.
So maybe I don't accomplish everything on my to-do list anymore. And maybe I do occasionally forget a to-do or two. What I've come to realize is that some of those to-dos just weren't worth doing. And so many of the things that don't make a to-do list, like reading a book with my son or relaxing with him in the backyard, marveling as he discovers something new (and really allowing myself to be engaged; not weeding or dead-heading the flowers or sweeping the porch), are the most important to-dos of all.
The clarity to see that which is most important in life was the best birthday gift by far.
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